a better life , for tommorow that i can change.

everybody is at war with different thing , i'm at war with my own heart and my own life , no one knows my struggle . what they've see is only my trouble . no one alive has ever witnessed the struggle i've survived ,

you know i wonder if they'll laugh when i'm dead.
why am i dying to live ??
If i just living to fight
what am i trying to see ??
If there ain't nothing insight
what am i trying to give ??
when no one gives me a try.
why am i dying to live ??
If i'm just living to die.

It's on me , i'm still having memories when my beloved person passed away , as i laugh my homies dies in the car crash,
i was young and i was dumb but i've still had heart , in the dark where i've survived through the bad part , many dreams is what i had and plenty of wishes , no hesitation of it.

A couple of story , now i got whole people around me try to screwed me even my family member try to do it ,
what can i do ? But to stay true , people around me try to test me got the press asking question try to stress me. 'misery' is all i see that's my mind state.

today is filled with anger ,
fueled with hidden hate,
scared of being outcast,
afraid of common fate,
today is built on tragedies,
which no one wants to face it,

tonight i lay my head down , i don't want to reminisce on my past fear ,but the pressure never stops knowing at my misery , i want to change my life !

but tommorow i never see any change , a chance that i hope to build a new life ,
built on spirit intent of heart and ideals , based on truth ,

but i've become strong , because of pride to know that i'm fight with all my heart to keep all my dreams alive .

Eventhough it's hard to carry on , when knowing that no one will ever support me but i was still hopin .

" a better life for tommorow that i can change "